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14 June 2010 @ 05:31 pm
I kinda forgot this place exhisted... Theres been so much going on in my head lately. Every1 has there flaws everyone has there faults. Im not saying hes perfict by any meens but I am saying Hes the one. Im ready for our life to begin. Were I ends and we begins! Im not saying that its time yet...Im just saying my heart is ready. And to be quite honest i didnt think that would ever happen. Im happy :)
14 September 2009 @ 01:58 am
Hes pretty much like no one I've ever met and that's a good thing! 9/13/09 were "official" and I'm scared shitless.
07 July 2009 @ 11:13 am
life has been a pile of shit lately..but ive decided that things are gonna start looking up. life is to short to not be happy. Im gonna love the people that love me and forget the rest. I dont need you silly drama when i have real shit of my own. Sometimes you gotta get alittle wet in the rain while you waiting on some sunshine..but the rains not gonna get me down. im just gonn a take off my shoes and dance in it. Im sick of waiting for better days...im gonna start making my own!
02 June 2009 @ 12:34 am
Guys are driving me up a wall...today a guy that im talking to asked me if i wanted to go camping june 28th..me camping hahahahahahaha like in a tent yea fucken right. Hes got no clue..besides i barely know him...i cant figure him out?? and he deff doesnt have me figured me out!
28 May 2009 @ 01:42 pm
Sometimes it just seems so unreal. I cant wrap my head around what i have accomplished. -140 lbs its time to celebrate and enjoy all my hard work! The end of this journey couldn't have come at a better time. My 23rd bday is in 2 weeks. This birthday shall be an extra special celebration of all the changes Ive made this past year. A re-birth of sorts. My slate wiped clean this is a jumping point for the rest of my life. To be amazing! To work hard; to succeed at everything. I want to try new things and just enjoy life where ever that takes me! Cant wait to start living my life like ive never lived before! Im gonna live that life, you know the one of the girl who has everything. Its possible with hard work and determination anything can happen! If that's one thing i learned form this journey its that im capable of accomplishing anything my heart desires!
22 May 2009 @ 12:20 pm
Im not sure what im doing..but im gonna have fun doing it??? Life is so different now. Im the same person but not at all... its hard to belive how in 10 months i could change so much. Im having a hard time adjusting..my dad is having a hard time adjusting..lol hes not use to seeing me so skinny..and what he refers to as half naked all the time..lol I just like short shorts what can i say there cute and i have nice legs! hehe Im loving the confidence I have, im loving the attention im getting. I just hope i can keep it under controle. Not hurt myself or anyone else in this process of discovering the new me. And by hurt myself i meen make a distructive decision or a decision i will regret. Sometimes I like the attention so much my judgment becomes clouded and thats noooo good.
14 May 2009 @ 11:26 pm
im in a good mood!
25 April 2009 @ 01:35 pm
I had to have emergency surgery yesterday to remove the infection in my abdomen from my tummy tuck. Staph and strep infection. ugh a double whammy. Surprisingly I'm feel rather well for being cut open again yesterday. Hopefully things heal up right this time so i can get back to being Julie.
06 April 2009 @ 11:53 am
How shallow theses people be to judge me
How shallow that this change, changes there gaze
There eyes boring into my being just judging me
But as the journey comes to end
I realize I be the shallow one
How shallow am I for it to matter what they think
To be in such disgust to self mutilate
To allow someone to cut open my body
Just so the judgment will stop
So acceptance will start
Is it my self acceptance I seek or that of the worlds
Why did I do what I did?
What has been done can not be undone
No regrets but remorse
How shallow am I?
28 March 2009 @ 06:33 pm
home from the hospital..doing ok very sore... but to be expected right? Hope we have a speedy recovery so i can get back to life..and so i can stop being so sore...and stop relying in others i hate not being able to do thinks for myself